[hopelessbear]

Hi. Sorry about if you did not get enough support before. I read only when I have extra time when I do not work on myself. I would say that I understand your thoughts and how gambling effect your mental and physical. I thought I could control it by myself and that If I just win a few hundred in a day. It would be enough and I can control it. But addiction is tricky. A lot of people here including me , We know that we should stop when we reach to that win we limit it to ourselves but when we reach it, We always feel like we can win a little bit more. Just a little more. Then everything becomes blurry. At least to me , I ended up with a big pile of debt after that.

What I am saying is , Be careful. If you can control and limit yourself. Good but please remember that you might not be able to. I do not want you to end up with a big pile of debts like a lot of us here.
Good luck!

[hopelessbear]

This week is pretty calm. I am more busy with work and life in general that I do not have a lot of time to think about gambling. Though a lot of time I think about what it did to me. I’ve been in the treatment for 5 weeks now. Right now we are doing the behavior exercises in different kind of situation that I put myself into. I identified my triggers and work through it by directing my brain to choose different path than gambling when my brain get triggered. I am still doing a very easy ones for now and even though I feels it is easy. I know that the most important thing is not to relapse. One relapse can put me directly back where I was. It is a fight everyday for sure. Just some day or some week can be easier or harder than the others. I have had an easy week this time. So we will see what is next.

2 more days I will be 60 days gambling free. I work very hard everyday since the day i decided to quit and I hope I can continue to be in this direction forever.

[hopelessbear]

It has been over a week since I last posted. Nothing much to update really. Everyday is a fight as usual. I felt better about the scared I had about the person near my house jumped off the cliff. I appreciate the air that I am breathing in and I am happy that I am alive. Got a paycheck in the account yesterday. I don’t have any urges like I want to play. Maybe a little bit but the guilt and shame that it cause me from my big pile of debt only make me feels bad. I saw the money in the accounts and how much I have to pay the bills. I feels really sad that this will be my life for a long while. But what can you do except accepting it and try to survive everyday without digging a deeper hole to yourself.

I am lucky enough that I have a partner and a best friend who are supporting me through this. Knowing that they know about my addiction helps me to stay straight forward better. I am still in the treatment program. Now I have a small exercise to do everyday. It’s quite hard to not thinking about the big win I have had but It is getting easier to tell myself how stupid those thoughts are.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Agradeço não ter me machucado quando cheguei ao fundo do poço. 2. Sou grato por me dar a chance de viver e lutar contra meu vício. 3. Sou grato por ter um plano para o meu problema financeiro causado pelo jogo. 4. Agradeço por ter dormido melhor desde que parei de jogar. 5. Sou grato pelo amor que tenho para dar aos outros e os outros o dão a mim.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Jien grat li ma għamiltx ħsara lili nnifsi meta laqat il-qiegħ. 2. Jiena grat għal dak li nagħti ċans li ngħix u niġġieled il-vizzju tiegħi. 3. Jien grat li jkolli pjan għall-problema finanzjarja tiegħi li tikkawża mil-logħob tal-azzard. 4. Jiena grat li jkolli rqad aħjar peress li nieqaf mill-logħob. 5. Jien grat għall-imħabba li għandi nagħti lill-oħrajn u l-oħrajn jagħtuhieli.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Agradeço não ter me machucado quando cheguei ao fundo do poço. 2. Sou grato por me dar a chance de viver e lutar contra meu vício. 3. Sou grato por ter um plano para o meu problema financeiro causado pelo jogo. 4. Agradeço por ter dormido melhor desde que parei de jogar. 5. Sou grato pelo amor que tenho para dar aos outros e os outros o dão a mim.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Sono grato di non essermi fatto male quando ho toccato il fondo. 2. Sono grato per avermi dato la possibilità di vivere e combattere la mia dipendenza. 3. Sono grato di avere un piano per il mio problema finanziario causato dal gioco d'azzardo. 4. Sono grato per aver dormito meglio da quando ho smesso di giocare. 5. Sono grato per l'amore che devo dare agli altri e gli altri lo danno a me.

[hopelessbear]

17.08.2021 1. Я благодарен за то, что не причинил себе вреда, когда упал на дно. 2. Я благодарен за то, что даю себе шанс жить и бороться со своей зависимостью. 3. Я благодарен за то, что у меня есть план решения моих финансовых проблем, вызванных азартными играми. 4. Я благодарен за то, что выспался лучше, так как я бросил азартные игры. 5. Я благодарен за любовь, которую я испытываю к другим, и другие дают ее мне.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Tôi biết ơn vì tôi đã không làm hại bản thân khi chạm đáy. 2. Tôi biết ơn vì tôi đã cho mình một cơ hội để sống và chống lại cơn nghiện của mình. 3. Tôi biết ơn vì đã có kế hoạch cho vấn đề tài chính của tôi do cờ bạc gây ra. 4. Tôi biết ơn vì đã có một giấc ngủ ngon hơn kể từ khi tôi bỏ cờ bạc. 5. Tôi biết ơn vì tình yêu tôi dành cho người khác và người khác dành cho tôi.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Sunt recunoscător că nu mi-am făcut rău când am lovit fundul. 2. Sunt recunoscător pentru faptul că îmi dau șansa să trăiesc și să lupt cu dependența mea. 3. Sunt recunoscător pentru faptul că am un plan pentru problema mea financiară cauzată de jocurile de noroc. 4. Sunt recunoscător că am dormit mai bine de când am renunțat la jocuri de noroc. 5. Sunt recunoscător pentru dragostea pe care trebuie să o ofer altora și ceilalți mi-o oferă.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Zahvalna sam što se nisam ozlijedila kada sam dotaknula dno. 2. Zahvalna sam na tome što si dajem priliku da živim i borim se protiv svoje ovisnosti. 3. Zahvalan sam što imam plan za svoj financijski problem koji uzrokuje kockanje. 4. Zahvalna sam što sam bolje spavala otkad sam prestala s kockanjem. 5. Zahvalan sam na ljubavi koju moram pružiti drugima, a oni meni.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Jag är tacksam över att jag inte skadade mig själv när jag träffade botten. 2. Jag är tacksam för att jag ger mig själv en chans att leva och bekämpa mitt beroende. 3. Jag är tacksam för att jag har en plan för mitt ekonomiska problem som orsakas av spel. 4. Jag är tacksam över att få en bättre sömn sedan jag slutade spela. 5. Jag är tacksam för den kärlek jag har att ge till andra och de andra ger den till mig.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Благодарен съм, че не се нараних, когато ударих дъното. 2. Благодарен съм за това, че си давам шанс да живея и да се преборя със зависимостта си. 3. Благодарен съм, че имам план за моя финансов проблем, причинен от хазарт. 4. Благодарен съм за по -добър сън, откакто напуснах хазарта. 5. Благодарен съм за любовта, която трябва да дам на другите, а другите ми я дават.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. Jeg er takknemlig for at jeg ikke skadet meg selv da jeg traff bunnen. 2. Jeg er takknemlig for at jeg gir meg sjansen til å leve og bekjempe min avhengighet. 3. Jeg er takknemlig for at jeg har en plan for mitt økonomiske problem som skyldes gambling. 4. Jeg er takknemlig for å få en bedre søvn siden jeg sluttet å spille. 5. Jeg er takknemlig for kjærligheten jeg har å gi til andre, og de andre gir den til meg.

[hopelessbear]

17/08/2021 1. मैं आभारी हूं कि जब मैंने रॉक बॉटम मारा तो मैंने खुद को नुकसान नहीं पहुंचाया। 2. मैं आभारी हूं कि मैंने खुद को जीने और अपनी लत से लड़ने का मौका दिया। 3. मैं जुआ के कारण होने वाली अपनी वित्तीय समस्या के लिए एक योजना बनाने के लिए आभारी हूं। 4. जब से मैंने जुआ खेलना छोड़ दिया है, मैं बेहतर नींद के लिए आभारी हूं। 5. मैं उस प्यार के लिए आभारी हूं जो मुझे दूसरों को देना है और दूसरे मुझे देते हैं।

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