Morning all…
Been a week since my last post & lots has happened, not quite sure where to begin !! I’m still gambling free, although the want & need is there to give into this disease. The main reason is that my relationship has finally reached the end of its road & whilst I acknowledge its time to move on it still is giving me that empty good for noithing feeling, that gambling can help to make better in the short term at least. BUT that would allow me to give in to this aggressive disease & would permit me to think that my ex has made me fall deeper into a downward spiral, which can’t happen, cause as me all know it’s a slippery slope from then on in. All the in roads that I have made & the good work/time that the counsellor has spent with me would be for noithing.
All your posts do really help & a common theme is “just for today” I need to embrace this not only for gambling but for other aspects of my life, as every day does really ***** & there is no point being unhappy when we are able to change & influence our direction.
Thanks for listening. Mark x
