I was in the same situation the last time, when I did tell my wife it was rough and I promised her I would never do it again and I didn’t for almost a year. I don’t even know why I started again, I keep looking back and ask myself what went wrong, but I can’t change anything now. The one thing I wish I did was to read about how much an addiction it can be. I’m going to talk to her within the next couple of weeks and I’m am truly scared, but I know I have to.