Hi Rickjames.
Well done on looking for helpo.
I can only apologise, your post seems to have been missed here.
I would recommend copying and pasting it to the My Journal forum, it is a busier form and you will find more support.
The money is gone, well doen on makig the decison to not gamble again. Have you also made yourself accountable so that your partner would know instantly if you were tempted again?
I’m not religious but the Serenity prayer helps me a lot with dealing with thigns in the past.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things i can not change, the courage to change the thigns i can and the wisdom to know the difference.
You can’t change what has happened but you can change things moving forward.
Keep posting but I recommend the My Journal Forum, it’s frequented by more members.