[sabrina]

i have tried to make up my mind not to gamble amymore and trying very hard to stay busy, but it is hard to do when my husbands only desire is to go to the casino, no other interests just that. he used to say he was going to his other job, it was fine until they tightened up the machines and now  its harder than ever to win, but so easy to loose, which we both have been doing. the same wonderful weekend again, him not well and me cooking and cleaning, but behold a sudden recovery just in time for double points day, and god forbid that he invites me to go along , im only suppose to watch and not play according to him, oh yes, also give him all my money so that can go into the bank. he retired early, telling me he would find a part time job, haha what a joke. how am i suppose to be happy when this really is our life? if he finds a machine he will be out all night, which means he will sleep all day tommorrow. i cant wait for tues. to go to work, everyone thinks i have it made because i got married older and no kids, what a joke!! im so bored, no friends, not easy to make when your older , no self confidence, i leave the house early for work and get out late, so there is no time. thats why i end up stopping at the casino after work, i know what im in for over the weekend, i just loose myself and my money in there. im desperate for changes .im crying now but i know that im better off staying home,,,,,,,,

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