Hello jasmine and welcome to the forum. I’ve been gambling away my “extra” money for years, actually decades and I know exactly what you’re saying.
It often seemed as ‘no big deal’, I thought I could afford it, my bills were paid and my family and I led a fairly good life.
But it catches up with you when things turn sour. And the money you could have saved is gone.
In addition it is such a waste. Waste of money, waste of time, loss of opportunity.
What video poker machines do you play? Do you at least know how to play? Some of these machines have a payout of almost 100% if played perfectly.