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Hello everyone,

When I was 12 years old I started playing counter strike global offensive, it has a system where you can trade and buy/sell skins for a lot of money. There were no rules on betting with skins (there are now), so I started betting…
The first year I lost 50 euro. Till I found a gap on a betting site and made from 16 dollar 15000 dollar. A month later I wanted more and more and lost it all on an all in coinflip.
From that day I was addicted, always had the feeling I needed that money again.
Yesterday I became 21 years old, around 9 years ago it all started. I haven’t had much problems, no debts, but also no extra money. I save up money, but than I get stressed because of exams and I start betting again.

A year ago, I unsubscribed from my country’s official betting law, so I can’t go in casino’s or use official betting sites. Which helped, but started using the cs go betting site again…

About the feelings: Betting takes away my stress for a brief second and gives me a burst of energy. After losing it all, it makes it way worse and makes me angry on myself. In my regular life it makes me more insecure about myself, I don’t believe I can say no to bad things.

extra info:

*I’m still a student, so I don’t make money myself.
*In my lifetime I lost around 3000-4000 euro, which is around 60% of all the “pocket money” I have got in my life.
*I have talked about it several times with my girlfriend. She really hates betting and never did it herself, she is mostly disappointed when I did it. Last time I said that if I did it again, I will go to group that could help me, but at the moment this isn’t possible. (exams and corona)
*A few years ago I lost a year of school because I put to much time in betting.

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