[riverdaleboy]

Thank you Monique for your comments. I am totally focussed on what I want to achieve and that is total freedom from this gambling cancer that has ruined my life. I am pretty sure that I am strong enough to cope with the pressure that is put upon me by my family but I am hoping that my stay with Gordon Moody will help me gain more confidence in myself because my self esteem is so low at the moment.

[riverdaleboy]

I know it sounds strange but ever since I reached out for help after many years of gambling my family have done nothing but ridicule my efforts. I had a good think about the cause of this problem and have come to the conclusion that it is the culmination of many years of lies and deception that I have put them through. I suppose its the cry wolf situation. They did not believe initially that I had been accepted by Gordon Moody until I let them read my e mails etc. I cannot wait to get away from all this mockery, I really do think that to some extent they are part of the problem now. Your thoughts on this subject would be much appreciated.

[riverdaleboy]

Like you I have a severe gambling problem. I have lost everything in my life including two marriages and my seven children. I need help in the same way that you do but believe me the very fact that you are talking about it will help because you have admitted that the problem exists and can start to do something about it. Listen to the many words of advice you will get on here because it does help. I have only recently joined myself but re visit every day to give myself some guidelines on a day to day basis. Good luck my friend I know exactly what you are going through.

[riverdaleboy]

I would like to thank you for the warm welcome to this forum. I am looking forward to a future with some hope now thanks to the comments I have received already and the fact that I have been lucky enough to be accepted by Gordon Moody. It is just a matter of getting through day by day and as you have so rightly said making plans for my money to be less readily available to me and closing all my accounts with anything connected to my gambling addiction. Thanks again for your words of wisdom I am a good listener,

[riverdaleboy]

I am glad you enjoyed the poem, I used to write a lot of poetry but that too has fallen by the wayside recently. I have had a lot of counselling with Breakeven which has now ended and I think that was the trigger that restarted my problems because I suddenly felt abandoned again which is something I have had to get used to over the years. I will get through Christmas somehow and wait for my place at Gordon Moody, until then life will be a struggle but I am going to stay on this forum and hope that with the help of people on here I can survive this current crisis. As for getting someone to take care of my funds I have tried that but always found a way round it to get the money either by deception or by lying my way out of it. I know that sounds awful but when the urges hit me I will do anything to gamble even though I know the consequences.

[riverdaleboy]

I am new to this and this is my first post apart from a poem I posted earlier. I have been reading through some of your posts and I am hopeful I can do as well as you have over the months. I have been a serious gambler for over 40 years and really need to change my life. So I will keep an eye on your progress. Well done for everything you have achieved so far.

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