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So I started playing Tetris quite obsessively on my phone for the past four weeks. Thought it would help me move on from the G and was a game I played during my time out. Except I’ve started playing it at times when i have important things to do.

This morning I found myself playing Thor’s lightning demo version online and I realised that I was back to allowing the slots in. Then I ended up playing for real on a non uk website. So I relapsed 🙁 ofcourse I lost the money.I feel like crap really but definitely a lesson learned that I can’t replace G with games that imitate it. It will only trigger that behaviour.

I downloaded Gamban on my phone, it’s free for the first 14 days but I will buy it after. What good about it is that your cannot remove it once your have installed it on the phone. So today is my day 1 again.

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Thanks idi 

🙂 

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Well done Jen. Almost four weeks gf is an achievement

well done

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Day 72

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I will never leave the door open for ruin. I will never be influenced to gamble however convincing the argument may be, gambling, chasing losses, waiting for the big win is a losers game, false. I lost and I don’t want to be there again.

Obstacles are my shield against this insidious activity.

Next year and the next and the next will make my nightmare of gambling more distant from me. May it stay away forever

With each day that passes my reasonable mind grows stronger

Thank you god

I will not make excuses to gamble or justify my gambling or leaving the door open. Gambling is a choice, the wrong one clearly 

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I am sorry to hear that Vera. I’ve been there myself. its the gambling mind wanting a repeat the “big win”

horrible. So glad I have closed that door 

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I agree with steev,

if you want to take your addiction seriously and quit seriously, you really do need to ban for as long as possible.

pausing means -“I’ll come back to you when I’m ready” so basically what you are saying through that action of pausing is: “I do wish to gamble again when I am ready”

take your recovery seriously if you wish to not lose over 80,000€ This year and the next. ban yourself. Saying “if I go one more time…” Really is leaving the door open. you will gamble again and again as you have created no obstacles 

take your recovery seriously and ban yourself from all casinos you have resigtered with. It’s the only way to shut that door for good 

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This is terrible 

gambling is a choice. You can make the right choice to not act on the urges

you can lead a gamble free life. You just have to believe it 

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Hi this is terrible

What a rollercoaster ride you are on. Thank you for sharing your story.

The gambling is getting worse and worse. I lost £4000 when I first gambled In 2012 dec to jan 2013

I stopped for seven years and then this year gambling somehow crept back into my life

I lost close to £30, 000 in just 8 weeks

I have decided to say no more. Gambling has ruined my life, my peace my finances

I am not in debt but I know I will be if the gambling continues.

I hope you can begin focusing on each day and staying gamble free

Just think that if it continues you can predict what 2020’s losses will be for you

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Thanks Jen 

lets keep adding to those gf days

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You are helping yourself in so many ways by not gambling murr. You are doing everything for the best by not gamblinG. There’s nothing else you need to do other than not gamble. All other things you can deal with if you choose not to gamble 

well done on getting through these first few days, it will get easier for you as you know. You will pass this, it’s part of your recovery journey 

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Day 71

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Day 70

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Wow Vera,

what a nightmare you you are livinG when asleep and awake

those wins are never wins 

do you think you can draw a line now Vera and start counting your gf days?

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It takes and it takes.

gambling will never give back. There is no making sense of it

Well done for the Steps you’ve taken 

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