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Thank you Seanraj and Lizbeth for your positive posts.

Today I am five months gamble free.

It seemed so unachievable for me and yet here I am.

No more excuses, no more confessions, no more highs, no more lows – just living life on a even keel with contentment, a sense of happiness and meeting those stresses when they arise.

I have done a lot of work on me through counselling and meditation and I realise that working on me is a life long job.

I am also grateful that my family members who know have kept it’s strictly to themselves and not blabbed to a group of strangers or even their friends – this has given me the space to find recovery without feeling humiliated or trying to second guess which strangers I meet on the street or which people I meet through my work might know. I guess I feel more valued and loved as a result of their putting my dignity first.

Tomorrow I will be into my sixth month- looking ahead always helps me focus ! Thinking one day at a time made me feel I could never do it ! I guess it’s important not to rely on cliches which have let countless other down !

Find what works for you and if something isn’t working try something else – recovery is possible for all of us. If you are almost there add something new like an extra barrier or counselling. If you have been attending support groups for a long time and you keep relapsing, then realise they are not giving you what you need and find a new way.

We all deserve to wake up on a Saturday and think will I go to McDonald’s drive thro for breakfast or will I make a yummy breakfast because I have money to buy yummy ingredients ?

It’s little things like this that make recovery worthwhile – compared to the huge plans I had for the big win which left me without even the most basic things.

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Hi Steev, thank you for your reply.
You understand completely how I feel.
One thing I am sure of is that the money won’t be going on gambling. I have already decided it is getting lodged directly to my husband’s account. It means I will have to come clean with him about a loan I haven’t yet told him about – but I’m sure he would be happier to learn I owe a little money than for me to try deal with it myself and lose the lot !

The longer I am gamble free the more the old honest me is returning. I have a long way to go as I gradually face up to the things I have buried .

It is payday and I am going out for my dinner. I am going to book an appointment for my hair for the morning. I will hopefully get a few new clothes over the weekend – I am getting quite a passable wardrobe together now. Life is good.

Being gamble free has made my life so much happier.

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Thank you Steev and Seanraj.

Not much to report except I am starting to look at kitchens and bathrooms! I can’t quite believe it.

I can’t believe that I am spending my money on things which will make my life better .
I can’t believe for so long I gifted my very happiness to the casinos.
I don’t believe my kitchen and bathroom will really happen. On some level I keep thinking other people have beautiful homes not me !
Why not me ? That I can’t answer …

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Hi Emma,
You are here and you are working at recovery .
Well done.
Another idea might be to close old email accounts and open new ones which have not been used for gambling.

Keep strong Emma- keep your barriers high and remember relapse is not inevitable!
You can so do this !

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Well done Crackle
That’s a week achieved.
The urges will become less and your brain will learn to accept no to gambling as you progress on your journey.

Keep reminding yourself that relapses are not inevitable.
Onwards and upwards

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Thank you Monica and Steev

I received a significant windfall yesterday (not from gambling !). In the past this would have been so welcome to cover up recent gambling and no doubt fuel further gambling. It wouldn’t have felt like real money.
Being gamble free means I now will have an emergency fund and I intend never to be without one again my whole life through.
It also means my home will get some of the work done which it so badly needs.

Feeling blessed .

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Forgot to say – 20 weeks gamble free today !

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Today I got up early and took a family trip to another city .
Enjoying the sightseeing and shopping – just had yummy brunch – and cannot believe I deprived myself of days like this for so long .
Onwards and upwards

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Dilano Este atât de bine să citești postarea ta pozitivă. Nu aș putea înțelege niciodată de ce oamenii aleg să se numească dependenți sau jucători sau CG sau orice altă etichetă pe care o consideră negativă. Și mai rău când alții cred că au dreptul de a eticheta. Suntem oameni care se luptă în prezent cu o parte a vieții noastre – ceea ce cred că nu este la fel ca aproape toată lumea. . Rămâi pozitiv – să nu te tragă nimeni în jos. Meritați să vă eliberați de această constrângere – cel mai important pentru dvs., deoarece sunteți o persoană bună și nu ați cerut acest lucru. Ps vă puteți folosi cardul bancar în magazine atâta timp cât știți codul de acces!

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Dilano Nagyon jó olvasni a pozitív hozzászólásodat. Soha nem tudtam megérteni, hogy az emberek miért választják magukat függőknek, szerencsejátékosoknak vagy CG -knek, vagy bármely más, negatívnak tartott címkének. Még rosszabb, ha mások azt gondolják, hogy joguk van címkézni. Olyan emberek vagyunk, akik jelenleg az életünk egy részével küszködnek – ami gondolom nem ugyanaz, mint szinte mindenkinél. . Maradjon pozitív – senki ne rántson le. Ön megérdemli a kényszert ettől a kényszertől, elsősorban azért, mert jó ember, és nem kérte ezt. Folytassa a munkát a SMART csoporttal – nem teszik lehetővé a haszontalan címkézést. Ps u továbbra is használhatja bankkártyáját az üzletekben, amíg ismeri a jelszót!

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Ділано Дуже приємно прочитати твій позитивний пост. Я ніколи не міг зрозуміти, чому люди вирішують називати себе наркоманами, азартними людьми або КГ або будь -яким іншим ярликом, який вони вважають негативним. Ще гірше, коли інші вважають, що мають право на ярлик. Ми люди, які зараз борються з однією частиною нашого життя – що, я думаю, не так само, як і майже всі. . Залишайтеся позитивними – нехай вас ніхто не тягне вниз. Ви заслуговуєте на свободу від цього примусу – перш за все для вас, тому що ви хороша людина, і ви цього не просили Продовжуйте працювати з групою SMART – вони не дозволяють маркувати марно. Ps ви все ще можете використовувати свою банківську картку в магазинах, якщо ви знаєте пароль!

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Dilano
It is so good to read your positive post .
I could never understand why people choose to call themselves addicts or gamblers or CGs or any other label they consider negative. Even worse when others think they have the right to label.
We are people who are currently struggling with one part of our lives – which I guess t the same as just about everyone. .

Stay positive – let no one drag you down .
You deserve freedom from this compulsion- foremost for you because you are a good person and you didn’t ask for this

Keep working with the SMART group – they don’t allow unhelpful labelling .

Ps u can still use your bank card in shops so long as you know the passcode !

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Dilano Nii hea on lugeda teie positiivset postitust. Ma ei saanud kunagi aru, miks inimesed otsustavad end nimetada sõltlasteks või mänguriteks või CG -deks või mõneks muuks märgiks, mida nad peavad negatiivseks. Veelgi hullem, kui teised arvavad, et neil on õigus sildistada. Oleme inimesed, kes võitlevad praegu oma elu ühe osaga – mis on vist sama, mis peaaegu kõigil. . Jääge positiivseks – ärge laske kellelgi end alt vedada. Sa väärid vabadust sellest sundusest – ennekõike sinu jaoks, sest sa oled hea inimene ja sa ei palunud seda. Ps saate kasutada oma pangakaarti poodides seni, kuni teate pääsukoodi!

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Dilano Je skvělé přečíst si tvůj pozitivní příspěvek. Nikdy jsem nedokázal pochopit, proč se lidé rozhodují nazývat se závislými nebo hazardními hráči nebo CG nebo jinými značkami, které považují za negativní. Ještě horší je, když si ostatní myslí, že mají právo označovat. Jsme lidé, kteří v současné době zápasí s jednou částí našeho života – což je asi stejné jako pro každého. . Zůstaňte pozitivní – nenechte se nikým stáhnout dolů. Zasloužíte si svobodu od tohoto nutkání – především pro vás, protože jste dobrý člověk a o to jste nežádali. Pokračujte ve spolupráci se skupinou SMART – nedovolují neužitečné označování. Ps u můžete stále používat svou bankovní kartu v obchodech, pokud znáte přístupový kód!

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Дилано: Как приятно читать твой положительный пост. Я никогда не мог понять, почему люди предпочитают называть себя наркоманами, игроками, компьютерными игроками или любым другим ярлыком, который они считают негативным. Еще хуже, когда другие думают, что имеют право навешивать ярлыки. Мы люди, которые в настоящее время борются с одной частью нашей жизни – что, я думаю, так же, как и почти все. . Сохраняйте позитивный настрой – не позволяйте никому утаскивать вас. Вы заслуживаете свободы от этого принуждения – в первую очередь потому, что вы хороший человек и не просили об этом. Продолжайте работать с группой SMART – они не допускают бесполезные навешивания ярлыков. Ps Вы все еще можете использовать свою банковскую карту в магазинах, если знаете пароль!

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