You’re kidding yourself if you think you will stop if you win that big bet. Of course you won’t, you’ll think you’re still at an overall loss, so you need to do it again. And when you break even will you quit? No, the disease will tell you more, come on, do it again, you deserve compensation for the years of stress, so let’s go again. Let’s do more ridiculous bets. If you are up overall is it enough? No, you’ve tasted the easy money, which is what hooked you in the first place, when it all started… except once you’ve tasted 6 figure bets, now all your bets need to be a lot bigger.. and everything you get you will put back in immediately. We can’t walk away, despite what the disease wants you to believe, that’s why we’re in this situation.
The first win is the worst thing to ever happen to a CG. Every subsequent ‘win’ caused the bets to go higher, the problem to get worse, the hooks to dig deeper. I no longer bet, because I fear winning. Winning damaged me more than any loss ever did.
Honestly you sound like you’re still within the grips of the disease… deep inside, are you actually ready to admit defeat? Or will that only happen after you’ve lost another 350k savings (and more) on the infinite chasing of ‘wins’.. which are actually temporary loans that you soon give back to them?