Hi Mate,
I don’t consider myself a CG yet but I’m sure it won’t be long if I don’t stop because it consumes my thoughts constantly. Basically its not about me but it is a bit….
For me you have so far proved an inspiration to turn things around and not get sucked into the world of gambling I currently am trying to avoid….
All I am trying to say is I have read your diary from top to bottom the other day (a lot of reading) and its the best thing on here. I wasn’t planning on posting but reading the above I feel like I have to.
Please carry on your recovery hit that year and never go back. 7k is a lot to save in a year. You did say originally that when you got some days recovery under your belt that you would tell them that you made a mistake and fucked it basically. If they are on your back about it all you probably should come clean. A year shows your commitment to turn things around and its almost got you to that 10k mark you vowed in your head you would never go below.
That said I completely understand your thought process and am guilty of believing in my head gambling is the way to make my money back. (Albeit a small amount in comparison to some)
Just please don’t ruin a years hard work in an hour of madness. I will be very happy when I get to a year but at the moment 1 month on and the pain has gone a bit and very tempted to go back….
Good luck Adam wish you well!
***Edit/EXTRA:
A few hours after writing this I told my Mum. It is a bit different for me as I am younger and have no responsibilities and am not being pressured into moving out. Still I do have to save in the long term to get that deposit and the wasted hours and money gambling is not a positive way of doing it by any account. I told her and I feel load better. The 1month free I have had shows progress in my case and the fact I told her motivates me more. I wont gamble for her sake as well as mine. She said her EX was hooked to fruties which I didnt know about and that give me encouragement too.
Im bloody talking about me again!!!
About you I am sure your parents would get their head around the mistakes made especially after your 1yr of bossing it on the gamble free front! And the pain you have endured and punishment to yourself flogging your less precious LFC gear. I love Liverpool and make the commute most weekends from Nottingham to see my GF who is at the uni!
To me you are a Gambling Therapy Boss! This website should be paying you to be here and post! To get traffic on this site! Best of luck again mate. I dont mean to preach especially as you are older and have way more life experience than me but just hope my taps on the keyboard can maybe put a smile on your face! Wow this is deep!
Night man!