Your problem Hammo isn’t greed Hammo, its gambling. And by having a problem with it, you just can’t afford to do it. Ever. It never changes for people like us we are f******ed when it comes to gambling.
£500 it’s an expensive lesson to learn but you must accept that that money has gone like the thousands before it. You can stop this but it will be hard, keeping it a secret from your girlfriend and Mam also very hard.
I don’t have access to most of my wages mate and I’m 50. I started trying to “give up” gambling in 1982, before I’d been to jail once.
I never listened to the people who said they knew how I felt. How could they they were all crazy fools who’s lives had been in tatters through gambling. I wasn’t as bad as them, I’d never be in their position.
Turns out I was the fool, they did know, I chose to ignore the patronising advice I thought they were giving me.
I hope you don’t make my mistakes mate.
Geordie.