You sound like me yesterday , I even drew money out account , said no , went home but then still went out again to put bet on. That’s very interesting about what you said regards chemicals in brain, it must have been released yesterday . i can also relate to celebrating with a bet so much , weekends is hardest for me, especially Saturday’s , it’s what Saturday’s were all about. I start off thinking just one bet , if I lose fine but it’s not , and it culminates in a chase and another day feeling like I did yesterday and today . I want to set myself a target and see how I feel once / if I get there. I’m hoping that I can somehow get used to not gambling, I’ve conceded that I’ll never be able to gamble normally again so abstinence is only way I can go. I want to post my feelings as I know having read so many posts im not alone with them.
