This was a really positive post and it is great that you have told your husband what is going on … BUT – ” I told him I would still like to do the casino night outs because it is my only leisure and he said it is okey. ”
It is NOT okay. When I admitted to myself that I had a problem with gambling – I knew that I could not put myself in a position where I might be tempted to gamble. My “poison” was slots and if I even saw a slot in a food hall or similar – I walked away and went somewhere else.
If casinos are your only leisure – you need to find something else. There are many, many hobbies and interests in the world – so please find something else to relax with!
One thing you can do is talk to others who are dealing with this behaviour. There are support groups on here (check the times on that section) and in other places … talking to people helps us to stay strong and away from a bet. Please get as much support as you can.