You learnt to come back here and admit to it – which is no small deal. A lot of people (including myself) would keep quiet when going back to gambling because of the shame.
This isn’t an easy time – it’s like a withdrawal from drugs except that you get a bed in a rehab for that. Keep posting, keep talking, get as much support as you can and keep strong. This is just a relapse – you can go on and be gambling free – I know it!