You can do this, thanks for commenting on my post thought I’d share some love too! Setbacks can always happen. I remember for me last October (1st) I said to myself that’s it I’m done and started focusing on a new hobby (Running) and I got really good at it, that I actually did a marathon in early January. The few days after i wanted to “celebrate” and went out to gamble and drink and I actually won the grand jackpot at a pub for $9000. I was on top of the world, said to myself this was my reward and I’d never play again! Paid off a $5000 loan I had and still had money left over, gave some to my mum and my wife and said it was from “investments” and kept a little bit to myself. Bad mistake. I got into it STRAIGHT AWAY! and went the week after and blew what money I had, after that I started borrowing off friends until it totalled around $3000. Now I had to get a loan AGAIN to pay them back, which is what I did except that I used the whole loan instead of paying people back.
Now $8000 and finally admitting I’ve got a problem when it was soooo EASY to come back to it and that’s when I opened up to my mum and told her everything as well as because I need a bail out. Now I have started doing GA and AA (As both are a problem for me). With my GA meeting being the first tonight, something has to change and we can’t keep doing the same things that have always backfired. I think we just have to keep trying and eventually we will get rid of this problem, but we can’t keep doing the same things as willpower sometimes isn’t enough. I think maybe you should try some GA or counselling services and just see if it helps, for me I feel like that weekly reminder of going and hearing others stories and maybe helping them that it will keep me away.