You are certainly not alone! Your story brings tears to my eyes as it resonates with me a lot. I too have lost both my parents and am only a few years older than you. I’ve also suffered other things in life which I always thought made me a stronger person, but maybe I’m not as strong as I think I am.
I don’t know how many times I’ve said “today is the last day” only to find a way to gamble sometimes the next day! This addiction is really a tough one to beat. I am a pretty smart person, I know I shouldn’t do this yet there I am depositing funds I don’t have and pressing the spin button like it’s nothing.
After a bit of a hiatus on this site, tonight is my first time back. Your story was the first on the list and it is truly a reminder we are not alone. I can’t tell you my exact figures and I don’t think the numbers matter that much but I know it was more than I had to lose.
I wish you well in your recovery and I hope for the both of us that we are strong enough to beat this thing and be honest with ourselves that this WILL be the last time we have to tell ourselves we will stop.
