Yes Jen that’s exactly how it goes – we promise ourselves than a twenty won’t matter and hours later we are in tears .
I almost bought two £5 scratch cards myself – I was going to put them into Christmas cards – but I knew that really I was buying them for me – while still in the queue I managed to rationalise it and didn’t .
Four days until payday.
I will manage most of the Christmas shopping out of November’s pay despite having a few fairly big bills.
There will be little left though and January will be such a long month .
I find myself wondering where I got money to gamble – I don’t seem that much better off- of course my saving are untouched this month – my tiny savings – I guess that’s something . I also have started paying off another visa which has eaten into my money .i find myself wondering hwo I could have been so stupid in the past when my brain is so clear now . I feel God really is helping me this time – I try to read a little from the bible and find time for prayer each day.
Went to a party last night – it was nice to be able to give a decent present for once . I was also able to make a decent donation to a charity yesterday. I guess that’s good.
I bought raffle tickets at the charitable event – I didn’t know how not to without looking mean or strange – I put other people’s names on the tickets so I can’t win but it still doesn’t feel right . I know others have ways around this – I found it hard to say no .i keep thinking about the draw and wondering if they will win .
That’s about it- gonna try get back to sleep ! Partying always interferes with my sleep .
Onwards and upwards