Yes, I know I should do that. I actually did it in the past and they honored it. I asked this one guy not to loan me money till the end of the year and he would not budge on December 20 when I asked him.
It’s not that I’m embarrassed to ask again, I’m not. I just want to see how far I get on my own.
I really wish I could get to the point where I would have the same feelings towards gambling as I have towards alcohol. I never drank and I have no desire to drink no matter the circumstances. My wife drinks wine and sometimes, maybe once a week, I sip half of her glass, but I absolutely have no desire to drink more. You could lock me up in a liqueur store and I would not drink. I just don’t like alcohol. And for the life of me I don’t know why I like gambling so much.