There is no such thing as a “win” for a CG, Steven.
Just think of it as a high interest loan.
I have often experienced a similar “numbness” following a “win”.
I don’t think this is part of recovery.
I think it’s part of the CGism playing tricks with your mind.
Sorry for the blunt reply but I was hoodwinked for years.
There is no middle road for a CG. We either stop or we gamble.
Just my personal experience.
