You wrote, “How can I ever escape urges when my whole life is about gambling or not ?” I haven’t worked on the SMART website – but I know enough about CBT to suggest that your thinking that your “whole life” is about gambling is faulty (to use the CBT term.) This is just giving gambling an importance that it doesn’t deserve.
There are lots of other aspects of your life – more to yours than mine I think. So what about the interior design – to take one area. I know you managed to move from there to gambling thoughts – but that is the gambling brain working again.
I was obsessed about being in debt and was always trying to find ways of using my time constructively without spending any money. Not that easy. But if Interior Design was my thing – I might be looking for free courses, seeing if I could buy cheap books on Ebay and sell them at a profit, start a free blog on the subject. Find out where great examples of design were local to me and find a way to get there at low cost.
Right now I have found a great way of stopping gambling – of stopping most things. Get food poisoning so that you can’t do anything for more that a few minutes before you have to visit the bathroom. I have to go …