[JohnNobody]

Where to start. Been a horrible week. Horrible. Feeling drained. Took a shower and shaved. Looked like a lunatic. Gambling sucks it all from you. To the point where it becomes the only focus. Have managed to clear the kitchen somewhat. There was actually stuff living in the sink!!!! It was terrible. Tomorrow with my father at the hospital all day. He going under for tests on his throat and stomach. That is a worry.

I have not gambled but am not counting days. The situation is dire to say the least here. I watch the calender and see it creep towards Christmas. For it to be January now. Tomorrow will be the same as today. I feel like driftwood at the moment. Thats all I can say.