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Dear diary

My sad reality.

Life has no future for me if I am not willing to give up completely or made adjustment to my life.

Things like gambling and alcohol, I have to stop completely.
Things like food, work, sex etc. I have to do it moderately.

Otherwise I have no future.

What form of substance do I abuse?
Alcohol, food.

What form of behavior do I abuse?
Work, Sex, Gambling.

What form of gamble do I abuse?
Slot machine, football, bacarrat, horse racing, 4-d lottery, toto lottery.

I felt very powerless today, I realized that I lost much of my life to alcohol, gambling and work.

I also see the ugly side of myself today.

When I have power, I don’t surrender.
When I am powerless, I was force to surrender.