What a shock you’ve had , Charlster! Exactly what a CG in early recovery and with underlying anxiety does not need! Could you ask the police to get some assistance to de-brief with a counsellor? You really could do with a bit of “hurdle help” here!
There are two “positives” though , if such a word would be appropriate at this time.
1. You weren’t alone when that man’s body was found (RIP)
2. You didn’t find him two weeks ago, when you were still “licking very raw wounds”.
Don’t let this set you back Charlster. Easier said than done I know.
On a slightly different note, I have become wary of counting days…I counted approx 390 in succession and exploded like a volcano. Maybe it works for some but I won’t be doing that again. It magnified gambling for me and gave it power over me that it really doesn’t have! I gave my power away by counting G free days. No judgement or criticism. Just sharing my experience.
Explosions create a hell of a lot of toxic debris!
And YES, I too gambled to escape but it was all done under the guise of fun/enjoyment/entertainment which all ended in bitter tears!
Over and out!
