Well it’s been almost a week exactly since I moved back to my moms… I absolutely hate it there. Words can never describe how much I hate it there. I’ve pretty much accepted it though and I’m done fighting the things that I have no control over. I’m learning the true meaning of accepting the things I cannot change. Right now my life is full of things I have no control over. I feel much stronger than I did a week ago though. I am more determined than ever to come out of this stronger and a much better, self reliant person. I will never allow myself to be in a position like this again. I still haven’t gambled… hasn’t even crossed my mind. That person that used to gamble almost every day, I can’t relate to. I don’t know who that was but I do know I never want to go back there again. I lost myself in something so stupid, something that in the end only caused problems for me. The job is going ok. I was offered a full time position two days ago. I’m not really crazy about it since it’s the night shift but right now I can’t afford to be picky and I should be incredibly proud. There are several employees that have been there longer than me that want the full time position. So I’ll count it as a blessing and deal with it for now. I’m going to continue to look for something different. Something that pays more. For now though, this will work.
My car broke down this week. In the middle of a blizzard and then today I’ve been borrowing my moms and hers broke down on me too. I have the worst luck ever. Oh well can’t change any of that. Gotta love it…
