Well, I didn’t sleep well last night. I think that I am worrying about my Mom. Besides her physical health, her mental health is becoming concerning. I need to start confronting these issues and decide what I need to do. Since I lost my Husband, the reality of death is always in my mind. My Father died when I was 16 years old. We were not close but he was my Dad. He drank himself to death. I have lost 2 Step Fathers, one who raised me. So how am I dealing with this? I wanted to gamble earlier this morning. I guess I wanted to run from the reality because it’s easier to do, but not really in the long run. I cleaned, watched Tv and now I am posting as it helps me to vent and process my thoughts. I know that I will get through this. I will not gamble.
