Well here I am at the airport my last chance to access this site for a while although i know i will often strongly wish i could and wonder about all of you i have interacted with here. I will be back though and there will be updates. I am so grateful for the replies, the advice, the support, the sharing here. It has made all the difference and now i have to build con it all and put things into practice, which means a bit of reinventing myself too! Rome wasnt built in a day! I do get some of the messages loud and clear now, finally. Sometimes it is as much the f&f of cgs as well as them who dont want to face up to the truth. I will be thinking of you and cheering you on from my Caribbean Islandia. Be strong everyone. What a wonderful siete this is. V, thank you!!! I hope that cyber toast brings good things.