Well done on your gamble free time, I know how hard it can be to not gamble for just one day, you are in a tough situation with your job but we both know what gambling leads to…….I can never gamble in a responsible way because I know I am a compulsive gambler, the only way we can move our lives forward is by not gambling, I cant tell you what to do because at times I cant help myself but it sounds like a job change could work wonders!!!!! We need money to live I know that and I have had some great well paid jobs but it didnt matter because I lost all my money gambling and lots more………It doesnt stop as I am sure you well know, the more I earned the more I gambled the more I lost the more time I was away from home……..its just a vicious circle and unless we break that cycle (not gambling) then nothing changes……….no sorry things do change but only for the worse, It is fightening how quick things spiral out of control.
I really wish you well and understand you are in a difficult situation but trust me (and you already know) there is no happiness to be found in gambling, I hope you can get your life back on track and I know you can, I also hope you can sort things out with your fiance………….I never really believed it but honesty is the best policy perhaps tell her you have a problem and ask for her help……….all I honestly do know is when I gamble I am not the true me!!!!!!!
Take care and keep sharing, hope day 4 gamble free is going well my friend.
Maverick