Well done for making that phone call to arrange that counselling session, proud of you dude. I felt that same relief saying those words out loud to my friend for the first time also. that’s a huge step you took towards rebuilding yourself
It’s good you know that chasing losses isn’t how to fix things, and that windfall ain’t gonna happen again, don’t let that tempting voice tell you otherwise . You got this, With a bit of work there’s a much better life waiting for you without gambling, and that is absolutely certain. Gambling will only bring more misery, also fact.
My advice would be to permanent ban/self exclude from all online casinos you’re signed up to, right now, don’t even think twice about it, that’s another leap in the right direction.
Take it a day at a time , please do keep the updates coming though in your own time. nothing but good can come from Fridays session, stay strong untill then.