Welcome to the forum Marta!
well done on the steps you’ve taken so far. IDI’s advice about a gambling blocker for you phone is a good idea! It has helped lots of people overcome. If you can’t get to GA right now keep posting and reading here. It is a reminder of where it will take you. Have you talked to anyone here at the help desk? They might have some other counselling options for you in your area. You are right, it can take everything from you including your freedom, your sanity and your life! Stay strong,
Laura