Hi Rok,
I’m a woman in late 40’s, have 2 almost grown sons, and also had nearly 6 years of recovery/abstinence. When I look back the last three years were abstinence only. I went back to normal life (I had only gambled for a total of 4 years prior to this). I didn’t attend meetings or use websites. I knew I wasn’t cured, but it wasn’t on my mind anymore. Now I see the mistake in that. I’ve been gambling sporadically for two years now. I’ve not told my husband about my return to gambling. Only a close GA friend knows. He had swore he’d leave me if he caught me gambling again. Not sure I’m ready for that.
So all of that to say “I hear you” and understand where you are coming from. I’m glad to read that you have been checking in and that you haven’t been gambling.
I don’t know much about sport betting so I’m not sure how you can block yourself but maybe someone in the community who is familiar can give you some suggestions. Have you thought of some ways to restrict your access to money so you don’t cause destruction? Have you thought of going to a meeting? I”m thinking I will go back to GA once my medical situation improves. I hope you are finding some resources and support.
take care,
Laura