Many here have been when you are – some are still there. Your story reminds me of some of mine – I would place a bet trying to double up and catch up with losses. On the occasions I would win, I would only pay back some of the money borrowed – with the other money I would try and chase more of my losses. It always ended up with my loosing the money I had one plus much more trying to recovery those looses.
I just kept digging myself into a deeper into the hole. The only way to get out is to stop digging. Coming here is the start for you… one day gambling free – keep dling that one day at a time.
Stay strong!!
Lee