Welcome spotter to this site, i have only been here for a few weeks and the support have been very good and just reading other people stories makes me feel like I am not alone and going crazy.
I at not sure what is involved with a job as a professional gambler but I am thinking it will be hard to keep this job if you really want to stop the complusions to gamble.
Where I work we are connected by a shopping mall and a casino and for 10 years I never stepped foot in the door and then after a few trips to Vegas, one day I went in and put in 20 and 8 years later I haven’t stopped. Lost so much money I didn’t keep track, but it’s more then that, I lost my concentration, didn’t perform as well at work, etc and I lost complete control when going in, one 20, turned into thousands of dollars.
I finally after fooling myself many, many times, have admitted I can not gamble responsible and I surrender and give up the fight to win any of my lost money back, it’s gone forever.
I told my husband and we made a plan together, I have gone to one counselling session. Just admitting it to someone and saying it out loud has helped me a lot.
If you really want to do it you can, but you have to do some hard work and make some changes in your life and really want to stop.