Hey SB,
I think we’ve all been down the self-destructive road of “I’m screwed anyway” let’s just gamble it all out.
I know that this is basically a trip which is virtually unstoppable and inevitably will lead to rock bottom. The only thing I can recommend, like above mentioned, is to just either have no money or give full control of your finances to your partner. Self-exclusion will also help. Sorry to hear you’re going through this but try to hang in there…there will be light at the end of the tunnel despite how dark it may seem right now.