We have all been there Eraser – it’s absolutely horrible .
I have had years of people kinda accepting I would slip.
Recently Geordie has been posting more regularly on my thread and despite wanting to slap him at times (lol) I really find his direct no bulls*** way of challenging me is exactly what I need. I no longer accept for myself that slips are an inevitable part of quitting .
I wrote on this site earlier that people go on and on about straight talking , about us not wanting to hear the things we need to – but they are so cryptic that mostly I have no idea what I am meant to be hearing except I feel put down and criticised for something I have written which has been picked apart and taken completely out of context .
With Geordie straight talking is straight talking – he tells it as it is – and he is able to do that cos he has beeen through it .
I think in his genuine desire to save us from the pain of relapse after relapse he can come across little over zealous at times , but if we see past that and really listen and hear – we can avoid this pain .
I guess the question is how well can we learn from the experience of others when it comes to addiction ?
Is it a journey we all have to travel ourselves ?
I don’t have the answer – I just hope Eraser you don’t have to feel this horrible pain again.
Saying a prayer for you tonight .