Hi,
Thanks for the response Vera by the way.
I think I am so risk averse which is my problem. I know too well about the risks of situations but just brush them right off and say they won’t happen to me! Hense gambling and hence losing!
I have been fighting hard all day but been doing this bad habit! Playing free online roulette to see what would happen if this was for real. I have heard things like this referred to as dry gambling.
I am writing on here to not go online eslewhere. I think I seriously need to consider K9 or something. The issue is tho that we have a family computer too and there would be no point just blocking mine….something for me to think about. Either that or I come clean to my sister with how serious I really think this is and get her to take control of cards and cash!
My head has seemed to be consumed with anxiety stress and anger since my big loss that brought things to light. It feels like I haven’t mentally relaxed for ages! I can be on this forum and Gamcare for hours each night….
Worked out a total of losses and winnings and divided that by 12months as a motivation and then 24months. Works out as a reasonable amount when you do that. Still tho I seem to think gambling is a way to reduce that and roulette and blackjack would be my answer. Deluded or what!?
By not gambling that is the only way to win I tell myself. I am going to try to believe and stick with what I write.
Time for my dinner now which I have probably burnt haha as I needed to vent on here !(especially as this is mainly my dirty little secret, don’t want to trouble my GF anymore with this).
See ya! Good luck everyone.