So I totally messed up spent loads of money that wasn’t mine ( was meant to be for bills/food etc) ever since i last posted eveytime i got money in my bank (twice a week) told my partner time and time again and promised I wouldn’t do it again that I was going to send any money to him lied to him over and over ..and then two days ago I blew £50 and then as I was doing my last spins something in my head just clicked – I didn’t want to be this person anymore, this isn’t me – the person who I have become I do not recognize anymore and I knew that I did not want to do it anymore I’m better than this and I will not let something like this ruin my life/my family/ my future so I came off the site and as soon as my partner came home from work I told him what I had done ( like I have done A LOT over the last few weeks) but this time I am serious I am done with gambling full stop. I told him that if he gives me this one last chance I will prove it to him, I CAN do this and I will .. I self excluded/deleted my accounts on every site I am registered to and then found a site named Gamstop and signed up to that aswell just to be sure .. I thought before that I could maybe just limit myself and have fun gambling which is how I fell back into the cycle of spending too much money ect , but now I realise I cannot do that I can’t just go on a site and play a bit of bingo or a slot and loose my money because then if I loose I will just deposit more and more and if I ‘win’ I play all the winnings and then deposit more. There’s only one winner and its certainly not me! .. 2 days completely gamble free 🙂 !!!
