My last bet was Wed 4th May. I’m still checking betting sites regularly for scores etc and thinking what I would have put on. I realise this is unhealthy, even though I’m not putting any bets on – partly due to self exclusion and also having no money to gamble with. I’ve had a bit of a rude awakening due to the obscene amounts I’ve lost/wasted and have nothing (other than debt) to show for it. It’s taken a period of not gambling to realise how much my mood was affected by my compulsive gambling. I’m feeling good about not gambling, but the debt I owe is acting as a different pressure/burden. I get a few thousand next week. Suppose my plan is to pay off one credit card and see where I am after that. The irony of the situation is that I had really good savings prior to gambling and didn’t particularly need the money and I’m now in a in a position where I would love to have my savings back and the winnings in the bank. I think I will have to look for more hours at work in order to meet my credit card repayments etc.
