Well I had some sad news this week my Uncle whom I help care for died on Monday morning so been a lot of turmoil as had to help support my mum and sisters and the missus whilst coping with the busiest period ever at work so my head has been a bit all over the shop for the last few days..
My Uncle had been struggling with his breathing for the last week or so and his standard of life had dropped so it was hard to see him that way and he could no longer get out with his dog on his mobility scooter and watching him gasp for breath was just awful so it is small blessing but does not make it any easier for all concerned..
As this was my new morning routine I am looking at possibly joining the gym so I am not spending more time at home and hopefully get fit enough to do a charity event next year again as another challenge..
I have not had any urges to gamble thankfully although I am still getting hammered with spam from casino’s offering me endless bonuses.. the only thing that comes from bonuses is dept when you get hooked again..
My mum is off to see my sister in Germany next week so we have put the funeral back until she gets back to England…
Just wanted to log this as better to get things off my chest rather than dwell on them and possible stir the dark demons that lurk within…
Hope everybody else is coping or putting things in place to get a better life away from gambling…
Take care all and good luck with the stopping…