So i got the job!! There’s a bit more negotiation to be done but we are there and there is a new chapter waiting for me. It suddenly seems all very final. My parents are happy that i’ll be moving back cliser to them and it feels like a weight lifted off after the horrible stress of my current job.
The next hurdle for me. How to tell CG. I know all of my many reasons for this move including the fact that he isn’t going to change. He won’t want to listen. Any previous mention of my taking the job has just let to “well then lets just break up. There’s nothing left”
I just don’t know the best way to deal with this. I do really love him. I just don’t love him in his gambing costume.
He is really active at the minute. I can’t even ***** the number of times he went to the bookies at the weekend. Him feeding his loose change into a fruit machine in the chippy. So hard to be around.
The sad thing is that his little boy is aware of it now and hates it. I can’t protect him against that and how do i even go about talking to a 6 year old about it??
But i know he doesnt want to change what he is doing. For me. For his boy. For himself. And there’s nothing else i can do.
Lily I appreciate your words and I totally get everything you are saying. I hope you are having an awesome holiday and aren’t reading this until you are home.