Yes, 2020 feels like good shifting energy coming in. I worked New Year’s Eve as I always do, and find I can get a lot done. I work very well on my own, and really don’t like managing people that much. It got me thinking about how I have been limiting myself somewhat by settling. I felt a lot of creative energy coming in and I liked it. My eldest son is setting himself up in business. Kai, my middle son, has built him a website, emails and livery. I have said I will help with contracts, bookkeeping and company constitution. He already has a potential client. I think the time is right for him to do it. His company promise much and don’t deliver. He has a family to maintain and cannot do it on what he earns.
However, I have to acknowledge that a gaming habit has snuck in from November really when away at the spa and spent about 250 quid. The three days I was back from Xmas break I spent a lot, particularly last night as I spent New Year’s Eve alone, as I have done for the past three years. I didn’t mind being alone as I felt in a good mood and I had the usual call with Pete who I will meet up with later today. But in those three days I have spent a large amount of money on games. Gambling large. I have played compulsively and realised it is giving me the same hit as gambling. I have now stopped and a New Years resolution is to manage my money better and stop overspending. I may need help with that.
Today I have left it all alone and started the Xmas rubbish and box clear up. Ben went out partying and at around 5 am I was awoken, he had lost his wallet and I had to let him in. I felt for him. He has cold turkey Ed from antidepressants, weaning himself off but likes partying a little too much.
2020feels like a big shift in energy putting the past troubled decade behind us.
For some reason I find Xmas difficult. Ben thinks it is because I do the same thing every year out of an obligation to my mum and sister. He is probably right.
Well I have put on 2lbs over Xmas which isn’t much. If ever there was any doubt about how compulsive I can be, the gaming has shown me but you cannot block Facebook games. I have tried on many occasions.
