Trying to keep it simple….i have a tendency to overthink..wondering whether hes being honest or doing anything im not aware of (gambling or anything else) Im not obsessing just still have a super high guard up i guess….im a very insecure person so it makes it worse ..thanks for reading suggestion i really liked Matthew 8. This weekend i spent my time with family and bible/shows about the crusifiction and ressurection of Christ…Easter has a very new meaning to me now after being saved…One day at a time…sometimes one hour at a time..I finally toke the step and made some actual plans that includes me seeing him commited to me/us/family further out than today…I don’t think he realizes how much his actions have changed me…he says he does but i really don’t think he gets it…i look at him differently…i forgive him don’t get me wrong…that anger and bitterness is not there but the level of trust that ive had for 17 years is gone and i dont know if or when or even how to get that back and he doesnt either..
