CGs are probably the most likely people to be deemed “Toxic” when we are in action, but in my experience most people have more good than bad in them. Personally, I dislike the term “toxic”! Our perception of others is not always clear when we are gambling. Everyone who refused to enable me could have been seen as a “toxic *************** ” but when I changed, most of their “toxic” flaws seemed to have no effect on me! I try to apply the adage “Judge not and you will not be judged” these days. Taking the “plank from my own eye” is more difficult than “seeing the mote in my brother’s eye”!!!
GA is not for everyone, I-did-it. The only requirement needed is a desire to stop gambling. You say you don’t want to be free from gambling, yet you want to be free from the compulsion -the addiction. I was honestly the same as you.
I felt if gambling was removed I would have no life.
GA will help you to see that from a different viewpoint. I’ve met hundreds of people in GA. Some , I relate well to. Others don’t interest me in the least but I have to admit that everyone I have met genuinely wants recovery for themselves and for other members. Unity, Honesty and Openness are the key requirements from what I have observed by attending approximately 200 meetings over a span of 80 weeks.
The opposite (Dishonesty, Secrecy, Singularity) are the things that make gambling possible for a CG.
These are the traits that destroy us.
Gambling and the “hangover” go hand in hand. (Like the old song “Love n Marriage”!!)
We can’t have one without the other!