After a very tough 3 nights at work . I want so much to unwind and escape . I’m trying my hardest to do that at home . I’m feeling down on myself and emotional . This is usual when the casino seems so friendly and inviting . And I’m off the next three nights and while I have no money on hand I do have the comp money waiting for me … again … I’m not going to go . I just am thinking about it . Also reflecting on my life and current job and wondering if I should pursue something else , I am feeling emotionally drained . I work as a nurse in a very acute ICU . The things I see are hard even for a veteran nurse , add in emotions of family who are looking to blame someone and coworkers dealing with similar stress , it gets to be a lot . And it seems the way I release is either to feed a slot machine or over feed myself . I’ve gained 25 pounds in the last year . But today I’m doing neither . I’m home off work tonight . I’m about to make a salad and watch a movie . Today I won’t !
