Dear diary,
It was easier in the second year compare to the first year when I am doing this.
Today I just want to remind myself that I cannot serve 2 masters.
Matthew 6:24
“No one can serve two masters. For you will hate one and love the other; you will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and wealth.
I don’t wish to idolize myself, my money, my job anymore, it only make me very self-centered, selfish and self-seeking. When I made how I feel and what I want a top priority, I only made things difficult for myself, I made giving up self-will and seeking God’s will harder for myself.
When me, my money and my job is not a top priority, when I made God a top priority, it help me break the chain and I become free and safe.
I am no more held hostage by life circumstances, I have live with less money while in debt, any money I earn now is more than that, it will be enough, I will have no fear. If the working environment is not safe for my recovery, I will have no fear to change my job, I can live with lesser money now, it is enough.
When money is enough, I don’t need to gamble for more.
Daily I must remember to think of God more and myself less.