Dear diary,
Our family maid has return to Indonesia for a 2 weeks holiday and I had to apply 2 weeks leave to look after mum.
I have been using this opportunity to bring her out everyday to different places to try out different type of expensive food I used to pamper myself. Sometimes it can be very costly for a meal.
It is eating into my small saving very fast.
At this rate, it is possible to lose up to 50% of my little saving
Honestly I did show sign of weakness, when I shift the focus on myself and my money running out fast, I can feel the pinch and something else… is it feeling of fear ? it definitely trigger my thought to grow my money by gambling.
When I woke up today, I was refocus, my God and love ones take centre stage, the picture is very clear. What I am doing was an act of love for my 85 years old mum and a sacrifice. I am giving away my love, I am not going to gamble to make up the financial loss due to spendings.
God’s Grace is sufficient.
I will receive my salary in 2 weeks time, my small saving will be top up. Trust God.
I was still amaze by God’s power, I read His scripture and words in the bible, I obey and follow, I start to see myself receiving His Grace and doing the right things.
In recovery, this has been say many times, giving up my self will, I cannot He can, do His will.
Only when the old me dies, can the new life begin.
Miracles do happen!
Thank you Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit, keeping me safe!