Took a sleeping tablet around 1am while watching a movie. It calmed me down. And then I slept. Woke up a while ago a bit groggy but at least I had did not have to face a loss this morning. I feel okay and good about handing over my card to my Niece Amber. It gives me a sense of some security as I know I can not gamble or it makes it really hard at the least.
My only other weak point is my paypal account which I need for work. That has a card attached to it. I am dropping that off at Ambers today. I need to cut all possible avenues of being able to deposit. Amber will deliver me 30 quid for food on Wednesday morning next week from my account.
I have given nothing to others here in ages and here you all are rallying and supporting me. I feel humbled by this. I want to be here for other people as well. Day 1 is today.