[pamelam]

he was more understanding then i thought. i also asked him to let me clean up this mess on my own. i think that is how he knows i am serious this time. i havent been gambling and for some reason i havent had any compulsion to go either. i am sure it will come. it always does. now i have to find help with my finances and a mental health pro. any suggestions on either? i have always heard dont file bankruptcy but i think i am going to have to file a 13. i cant do a 7 and i am sick of the stress. i think i really am ready to move forward and i have decided the only way out is to go through.
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