Today I was in a situation, and a place, that nearly made me run into a betting shop. My eyes actually was looking to see if there was one.
I was a bit disappointed/angry, then the urge took over me. I looked around and see no betting shop. I knew there was one some where here, so where is it now!?
I walked further and my recovery mind took over(it all happened in a matter of 5 minutes) now passing so many betting shops, looking at them, and passing them. I just thought for a second about not having money if I go in, and that was in this occasion strong enough to take the urge away. I went to a restaurant and sat, looked at people enjoying their meal. I ordered, ate and left. Now I was in front of a Casino, every thing started 15 years ago, in here. The first bet, the first Casino, the first gambling rush…
I stopped Looked trough the glass, saw the roulette machines, and left.
I made a mistake today. I took money with me. I did not plan, I rushed out to get to my appointment, so I carried with me the money that was meant for a payment and bills.
I was lucky that was able to visualize the possible outcome of the gambling there and then. My mind decided not to gamble today.
Came home and I was happy.
Do not carry money with you.
One day at a time.
